Elated! Completely thrilled! High! These are some words to express your experience while you were in the Shapers Hair Salon getting your hair cut for the first time. You were looking forward to the moment for a long time. You initiated the idea of having a haircut. What has been driving you has been the desire to look like a boy. I had some letting go to do, as I love your long hair. It’s been quite beautiful. In fact, I have been resisting getting my hair cut short, as I thought you might want to follow suit and cut yours. But no. You surprised me and came up with the idea on your own.
As Kelly was snipping your hair, your grin could not have not been bigger. You did not have one ambivalent bone in your body. Kelly suggested a bob, as that would be a good transition, but I felt the need to honor your request. Short is what you wanted and short is what you got.
Not only did you love the process of getting it cut, but you love having short hair. You love running your fingers through it to “brush” it. You like peeking at yourself in the mirror as you pass and you still hope people mistake you for a boy!
As for me, I think you look great in short hair. We’ll be donating your hair to “Locks of Love”, and organization that makes wigs for kids who’ve lost their hair due to medical conditions. We’ll also save a little for sentimental purposes.
Locks Lots of love, Mommy
Maya, dear Maya.
Oh, how I honored your voice and your self-assurance. You often danced to the beat of a different drummer. You would be outrageously and authentically you. What a gift; this started at a young age and continued. Dad and I are trying to weave the threads together that have dreadfully been unraveled in the months before your death. We are learning about a shift. Your voice changed; you did not have the same self-assurance. What happened? We have a strong belief that it is the teen culture. You could not be true to yourself as the pressures were/are too strong. We are burdened with so many “what-if’s.” For now, that does not serve us. We are looking forward to making shifts in the teen culture in your name, our dear daughter.
Love you always, Mom