I remember the first week. It was the end of Shiva. Rabbi Aura expressed how “we did not imagine that we would make it another day, not to mention an entire week.” This was so very true. Yet there we were. Today marks two years. How can this be? And here we are.
For those who follow the blog, and are not typically on social media, I would like to share with you a video of an acceptance speech that I delivered last week. TMI Project honored me with an “Agents of Change” award. The first part of this speech highlights the relationship between TMI Project and the Maya Gold Foundation. I then talk about my more personal story; a story that I share in different ways on the pages of this blog. Thank you for your interest.
The date, “October 2nd” is imprinted in the hearts of so many. I was showered with many kind thoughts and wishes from friends near and far, via emails, phone calls, texts, cards and messages. I would like to share with you one email that my friend, Dara sent me. Dara lives in Oregon. I have only seen her once since.
No response needed, truly.
I just watched your TMI speech. I’ve been off Facebook for a few days but consciously got on to check in on you today. I will never forget this day. I also celebrate Maya’s life but I can feel the impact of this day as it’s the one that scratches off the scab of the most perplexing emotions and thoughts.
I felt the need to reach out to you via email, hopefully a welcome break from the amazing yet overwhelming social media space.
I’m one that is hearing you, holding you and loving you.
So many of us have been broken open again and again, your wails are not in vain. I so wish losing Maya wasn’t the way I’ve been gifted to reach deeper into my courage, vulnerability and discomfort. In Maya’s honor and in honor of your loss I have consciously chosen many kinder and more generous actions. I have a long way to go but wanted you to know I’ve stretched myself to take more risks in being vulnerable. Yet, I’d trade it all to have her back with you. I believe she’s with you always and love is a power greater than anything we can even conceive but we can begin to feel it’s enormity if we stay open as you show us in all your words and ways. Thank you for continuing to teach and lead us through Maya’s gifts and those she has so unrelentingly and beautifully chosen for you or possibly chose together.
Loving you, Mathew, Sasha, Adin and Maya.
Kissing the top of your head today my dear sister.
With warmth and kindness,
I am always so moved when I hear of the ways that Maya’s life and passing has touched so many. Heard, held and loved. Thank you again and again.