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There are some memories that are so vivid, that as I replay each second, it seems to stretch out.  Each moment lasts hours.  I can feel see facial expressions, hear tones, embrace conversations, and have a sense of the feelings as if I am living them today.  In a way, I am.  The imprints are deep and are a part of me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

This is how memories of Maya\u2019s last week were for me.  It is also how the morning of her passing was.  As I slow down and relive them, I savor each memory, each moment in time.  My heart is shattered and full concurrently and tears have a life of their own as they roll.  The fullness comes from being in the moment; being in the memory as if it were now.  I experience the richness of that time with my daughter again in my heart-mind.  Living in the moment is how I wish to live.  This is how Maya lived.  Her life was always so full and in the moment.  She helped to teach me about this.  I continue to learn this lesson.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s a challenging time of year.  Many moments are dark.  Maya\u2019s birthday, the holidays which are such a reflective time, the anniversary of her death and her Yahrzeit (which is today, this year).  At some point, what I think is a joke got introduced.  National Daughter\u2019s Day appeared on the calendar.  It is really no joke at all, but a test, another test.  In the depth of the darkness, I swallow my own medicine.  I have no choice but to be in the darkness.  When I come up for air, with my head spinning, I feel a sense of wonder.  How can this be?  Not only how can it be that Maya is not with us.  How can it be that I am even here?  I recently shared with Mathew that it is truly remarkable that we are still here.  His response is that it is a miracle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

What is the gravity?  How is it possible to be here?<\/p>\n\n\n\n