{"id":27,"date":"2015-12-11T08:10:20","date_gmt":"2015-12-11T13:10:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mayasgifts.elisegold.org\/?p=27"},"modified":"2015-12-17T23:46:01","modified_gmt":"2015-12-18T04:46:01","slug":"gifted","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mayasgifts.elisegold.org\/?p=27","title":{"rendered":"Gifted"},"content":{"rendered":"

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When I was a young adult, my mom shared with me, \u201cElise, it is not for me that I\u2019d want you to have children. For me, it\u2019s not about being a grandmother.\u00a0 I would want for you to experience the joy that you and your sisters gave me.\u00a0 You have given me such joy.\u00a0 Know that children are a gift\u201d.<\/p>\n

After having my first child, Adin, I understood. There was no love greater.\u00a0 I knew that I had to have another child.\u00a0 That\u2019s right, it was not a wanting; this was a visceral need.\u00a0 Mathew, my husband, neither needed nor wanted to have another child.\u00a0 For him, it would be his third, as Sasha was his first (from another marriage). \u00a0At the time, he felt that two was enough.\u00a0 Mathew and I are really good at compromise, but when it came to this decision, there was no way to have half a child.\u00a0 We processed, went to therapy, soul searched and finally Mathew shared, \u201cElise, after all of this, I still do not want to have another child.\u00a0 But I understand how important this is to you.\u00a0 I love you so much, that I want to give you a gift.\u201d<\/p>\n

Maya was born on September 1, 2000. She took her life on October 2, 2015.\u00a0 Maya\u2019s life was a gift.\u00a0 I believe the saying that there is no loss greater than that of a child.\u00a0 I am living with this loss, deeply.\u00a0 It is one that I never wish on anyone.\u00a0 And as the days and weeks go on, I continue to uncover gifts that I\u2019m learning from Maya; even after her passing.<\/p>\n

Since September 2000, I\u2019ve kept a \u201cMaya Journal\u201d. I made a commitment to myself to record at least a little something in it monthly.\u00a0 This blog shares both entries from the many volumes of my Maya Journals and current reflections.\u00a0 I hope that you find a gift in all that I\u2019m sharing with you.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

When I was a young adult, my mom shared with me, \u201cElise, it is not for me that I\u2019d want you to have children. For me, it\u2019s not about being a grandmother.\u00a0 I would want for you to experience the joy that you and your sisters gave me.\u00a0 You have given me such joy.\u00a0 Know…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-27","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-gifts-since"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/s720L0-gifted","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mayasgifts.elisegold.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/27","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mayasgifts.elisegold.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mayasgifts.elisegold.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mayasgifts.elisegold.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mayasgifts.elisegold.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=27"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/mayasgifts.elisegold.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/27\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":32,"href":"https:\/\/mayasgifts.elisegold.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/27\/revisions\/32"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mayasgifts.elisegold.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=27"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mayasgifts.elisegold.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=27"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mayasgifts.elisegold.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=27"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}