Many faces of love
Growing up, my mom had a line that she would say to each of her three daughters, in a somewhat exasperated tone. I could hear her now, “I love you so much that it hurts!” Sometimes, she would cradle our face while chanting these words.
When Adin and Maya would have their sibling squabbles, disagreements, well, all right, fights, we would discuss what was going on afterwards privately. I’d hear, “I’m so angry, I can’t stand him (or her).” Or, “why does s/he bother me so?”
I would reflect that this anger shows that you really love him (or her). “After all, you wouldn’t be so furious with someone you didn’t care for so deeply.”
For me now, I’m in touch with something similar going on. But it’s not anger; it’s deep sadness. The pain that I feel would not exist had it not been for the deep love that I experience(d). Is the profound grief that I am in, really love in disguise?
I go back to other entries I have made here. This may be my mantra, for years to come. My challenge is to hold it all. The pain and the love.
All are February photos. From the top: 2008 at home, 2011 at Lake Mohonk, 2014 at Lake Minnewaska State Park, 2015 in Guatepe, Columbia
so much love on this love day ! Thanks for sharing.
xoxox
Yes, my dear one. This is wisdom coming through the pain. Holding you and Maya in my heart always.
Thank you Bonnie,
It feels good to be held.
Sending love. I think the answer your question is “yes”.
Sending love back to you.
She is waiting for you on a better place! Where is no pain, sorrow, or crying.we are living evil day’s. I’m so sure she is in a better place. My heart tells me. ❤
Thank you for sharing your beliefs, Maria,
And I feel that our Maya continues to live inside of me, now.
I read your Valentine’s Day message, Elise, with tears of love for you, your amazing mother, Nina, Maya, Adin, and Mathew.
I want to offer some thoughts, please take them only if they fit:
Your words reminded me of Martin Prechel’s words. He says, in addition to the deep love expressed in grief, grief is like praise for the person you love. He writes: “Grief is praise for those we have lost”. I hear your praise for Maya and feel your love. with love,Lucy
Thank you dear Lucy!
These words resonate beautifully.
I will hold them, too.
xx, Elise
Once again, you’ve touched me at the core. Thank you for sharing so beautifully, and clearly. Yes, love in disguise. xx
Profound insight.
Hi Honey, your words, make me think of Rumi’s quote
“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief…and unspeakable love” Rumi
I love you and of course the depth and beauty and passion of love you have for Maya is reflected in the depths of grief you are experiencing now.
I love you so much,
Susan