A quick check in
Soon after I started this blog, I had to check in with myself. I knew it was a bold step to be so public in sharing both stories from Maya’s life, and also my process. I told myself that I would only post if in some way or another, sharing “fed” me. I didn’t want to create any additional stress or anxiety. I’ve been listening to this voice all along.
I ran into a friend at the bus station yesterday. She let me know that she’s been reading the blog and voiced some concern as it’s been a while since I last posted.
Yes, the most time has lapsed since I started. I have written in my head a hundred different essays over the past few weeks. They include:
- A challenging Mother’s Day
- Parallels between physical pain and grief
- Signs from Maya
- PTSD
There are more, but these are the stories that have been strongest for me recently. I imagine I’ll get to share in more detail when the time is right. For now, I just wanted to touch base. I know that I’m being held by you and I appreciate that. Thank you and sending love.
photo from Mother’s Day 2005
dearest Elise,
this photo you sent today is one that is on a little “Maya altar” in the living room; you all look so happy.
sometime I hope you will share signs from Maya. She certainly must sense how much love is being sent to her, even from people who know her only through your sharing.
sending you much love… as always
leslie
We are here to listen and share, whenever the time is right for you. So grateful that you feel our love, always…..
Jody
Hugs, hugs, and hugs!
I love that you are following what is true for you each and every step of the way. I love that you have a community of friends who deeply love you and feel so deeply for you and your family. When you post, we are here, when you don’t post, we are here…for you and with you,
Love,
Now and Throughout Eternity,
Susan
Love to you, Elise.
Sweetie- was definitely wondering where you’ve been. Wanted to give you space. 💕
Elise, sending you love each and every day. Thank you for your willingness to share and connect… and finding the right timing for this. Much Love, Sarah
Thank you so much for everything you’ve done Elise. You’ve given me a source of strength I didn’t think I would find, and it bewilders me everyday.
Much love
Dear Elise,
Glad you’ve spoken out once again, Elise. Through the perspective of my own grieving of Brian, the pause in writing is another sign of healing, and the beginning of self preservation, by “checking in” with yourself in regard for how life is for you daily. Time has a way of loosening the grip of needing to keep Maya’s memory alive for us all. Again, from my personal journey through loss, your writings were a way of crying outwardly, and now marks a time of bringing your loss inward. That is not to say you won’t write again, or even write a book! Only that you don’t need to add it to a super imposed schedule, which brings writing to the level of another STRESS in your life. About eleven months after losing Brian from that freak accident, I had the realization that I had the same symptoms as PTSD. Finding out about what it was, and how to journey through it, gave my mourning the release I’d been praying for. Sending love and blessings for you both, as you steer through yet another layer of life without Maya. I am with you.
Elise, You are teaching us all about your journey in your sharing and process. I would also look forward if you share your signs from Maya. Sending cups of love as always.
I can only begin to imagine how challenging your mother’s day was. As always, I remain in awe of you and your honesty, bravery and spirit. Hope to see you in Pam’s class on Thursday.
Love, Eve
love you~love you, LiLi. xox
Dear Elise. You touch me so deeply. Your process touches me deeply as courage and openness touches so deeply. I too send you cups of love.
Xo
~ I hope you know there was no pressure in my concern; rather, with Mother’s Day in mind, I imagined what an especially difficult week it must have been for you.
~ I was so relieved to run into you and get a chance to talk a bit. Thank you for sharing your time with us.
Wishing you peace ~
Dear L,
No pressure at all! Sincerely! Just an inspiration to post a quick check in.
Thank you.